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Multiple masculine coded people leaving a lake, some helping others.

TW: Discussions of violence, mentions of sex or sexwork in the articles.

A question that I see in many of the circles I move in has been whether trans masculine people (trans men and masculine leaning non-binary people as well as others under the trans umbrella) can experience and even perform toxic masculinity. Hopefully the links below, as well as the discussion of my own experiences as a trans masculine person, can help clear some of that up.

Starting off by stating I’m a trans masc non-binary person who tends to just use the term trans man when describing myself outside LGBTQIA2S+ circles.

So the short answer to this is that yes, trans men can be the bearers of and perform toxic masculinity. In some cases it’s done as a survival method, where when they come out they’re expected to perform the same forms of masculinity as their cis peers, or in some cases it’s to try to “prove they’re man enough” to be considered men. …


TW: discussions of eating disorders, illness, abuse, trauma, violence directed at non-vegans, medical invalidation, and self harm.

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Two hands holding a bowl and spoon with various fruits, vegetables, and vegan dishes.

I know you mean well when you tell me I should try to be vegan, I really do. The problem is that I really need you to listen to me (and others) when we explain that we cannot go vegan. While there are a couple of you who do so and who advocate for people like me, far too many of you simply seem to refuse to believe that someone cannot go vegan. …


The BMI is complete horse puckey

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BMI Chart

Now for those of you in the US, I know you’ve heard of the BMI (Not the music group, I’m talking about the Body Mass Index) if you’ve ever gone in for a check up. You might not remember it, but it is a standard thing in today’s “modern” medicine. …


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MAJOR CWs for trans violence. I’m not proud of what I did in my past, but I’m sharing it in the hopes that others can learn from it. Also CWs for dysphoria, genital mentions, discussion of transphobia and misogyny.

I grew up during the 80s and 90s, and while there have been trans people well before then, and even some who had been able to transition through hormones and surgery, it was a topic that was not discussed. Being gay/lesbian was barely a topic that could be brought up by the time I was 10, and even then not without a lot of stigma and bigotry against those people due to the HIV/AIDS crisis on top of the lies told about them that we’re now seeing pushed on trans people. If you were trans you either kept in the closet, or you were rich enough to be able to disappear and come back a different person. …


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AUTHOR’S NOTE: This paper discusses looking to Native American psychology to critique Western forms of psychology. It should be stated that the author is not themselves Native American, and that they are not trying to claim as such through this paper.

Mental healthcare and support have been a part of my life since before I’d turned six years old. I found myself moving from therapist to therapist as I grew up, unable to understand why I was treated so differently by my peers and the adults around me. I’d get asked to talk about my thoughts and what I saw, only to be put on a new medication or sent to a new therapist who could properly treat my mental illness. …


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I’ve been sitting back trying to figure out how to best word my thoughts over the past several days. This is going to be a long ass post, so please stay with me as I’m going to be airing out a lot of my own dirty laundry in this as well.

I want to start off by saying that I am anti-cop and completely against our current prison/justice system. …


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Transgender flag with transgender symbol on top

It seems that one can’t even go a single week without seeing a story in the news regarding transgender people in sport. While thanks to the ability to reach larger audiences through the internet has helped the spread of awareness of transgender people in sports, this arguments one sees over and over in the articles aren’t new. There have been discussions about potential unfair advantages and even the possibility of cisgender men pretending to be cisgender women in order to gain an unfair advantage in sex segregated sports for decades. It’s something that has even become so common that TV shows and cartoons such as Futurama and South Park have created episodes where an obvious man or male aligned character chooses to compete against women to win. The problem with these episodes as well as the numerous news articles, such as The Washington Times article, “Most Americans oppose transgender athletes in women’s sports, poll finds” (Richardson, 2019) base their claims on myths and sometimes outright falsehoods. Despite the pervasive narrative that transgender people, specifically transgender women, have an unfair advantage and thus shouldn’t be allowed to compete in competitive sport, the history and scientific data show that the narratives are either not backed up by evidence or are simply falsehoods shared to create fear.


Or how we turned God into a man

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Masculine hand reaching towards a feminine hand with nail polish

Ask any of the protesters standing outside clinics or the various groups proselytizing on the street corners and on college campuses in the area as to God’s gender and more often than not the result will be far more confusing than it should be. “He is genderless” or “He has no gender or sex” are common answers to this question, yet even within their assertion that God is genderless, they are using a gendered pronoun. While it might seem odd and confusing to English speakers today, there is a very real possibility that the gendering of God was not intentional. In the older translations, going back to the ancient Hebrew and to the Greek there are numerous genders used when talking about God, with some of the genders being specific to various aspects of God’s work and existence. In some verses God is masculine, in others feminine, and in a few there is no definitive gender used when referring to their actions and existence. …


This piece was performed at the 2020 BODYlogues at Southern Oregon University. All statements in italics are statements that have been said to me either in person or online.

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Hey, I just wanted to say that I’m coming out as a trans man. Yeah, I know I’m in my mid 30s, but I was unable to come out when I was a kid. It wasn’t safe and so I just held it in until I couldn’t anymore. But I do wonder, am I trans enough?

You’re not trans enough. You’re just coming out because it’s popular. You’re just doing it for attention. You’re just a transtrender! A real trans would have gender dysphoria!

Ok, well I have dysphoria, am I trans enough?

You’re not doing HRT! Fucking trenders trying to fake being trans for attention! A real trans would be getting hormone replacement therapy!


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Asexual pride flag

TW: Sexual assault, rape, graphic descriptions, genital mentions, physical harm, attempted physical harm.

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I always have to laugh when I see people say things like, “Asexuals will never experience the discrimination trans or gay/lesbian people do!”

I’m a trans masc non-binary person who is asexual and panromantic. It takes a lot to hold back spilling my stories to them because I know it’s a “shut the fuck up” method of dealing with the repeated invalidation of my identity.

I have dealt with people sexually assaulting me because I was “in the wrong bathroom” due to being trans, I have had people tell me that “one good rape” will fix my desire to be a man, I have had people threaten my family and especially my children because I’m trans. …

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Michea B

Trans masc author of “The Guardian’s Ascension” and owner of Illuminatus Design. Media inquiries: TheMicheaB (at) gmail (dot) com

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